Relationship (BGR) pt. 2

Stop mentioning others, I will talk about myself. I will keep no secret for myself. I don't care how are you going to think of me, I will just be transparent in front of everyone. First of all, I need to mention, even I'm a christian, I'm still human, not perfect, not holy, like you all. The only difference is, I'm rescued by The Grace.

How many times do I fall in love? I don't think I can count the frequency. Almost every girl which I know. No matter she's younger or elder than me, even teachers, I could fall in love easily. I just can't control myself.

Many people should know that christians are not allow to have relationship before 18, shouldn't be 'not allow', is 'not encourage', because not mature enough to handle the relationship yet. So, back to the topic, Do I ever involve in a relationship before? The truth is: Ya, I did in a relationship before. Not 'a', should be 2. Erm, 3? It's complicated.

And recently, I still in love with a girl. She's beautiful and cute indeed. She's caring, tender and amiable. Can't describe how good is she. As you know, I in love, sees no weaknesses. Well, we had been together for about a month. And she's the first girl I kissed.

"OH NO! You're sinning!" Shut up~ I know that I'm wrong. That's why I have to face the consequences today for my rush and senseless doings. I had stopped the relationship when I realise that it's not right. We promised each other to wait, because true love waits, but... she already has another one. At first, I was totally breakdown mentally and physically. All my hope is gone. I cried for days. Then I started to make myself busy in order to make myself forget her.

As usual, I failed to do so. When I rest, she still appear in my mind. Thank God that He healed me. If not, I can't imagine my following days, a living dead man~ =.=

Stubborn huh? I will never learn a lesson, not until I hit myself on a wall and bleed, not until I hurt myself. Only then I will regret for my actions, come back to God with tears and wound all over my body. Thank God that He has so much patient on me. He always welcomes me with opened arms.

I know God has His own great plan for me, and the plan will bring maximum glory to Himself and also maximum benefits to me either on earth or heaven. Let His will be done. Love Him~

(To Be Continue)