On 31st December 2009, my church was having a watch night service. I never felt so excited before like I was on that day. I was holding on to the scripture - But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3: 13-14) when I
was attending the service. We all didn't countdown for year 2010, but we praised and worshipped from year 2009 to year 2010! We can strongly felt the presence of God in the midst of us. As we are worshipping, the healing anointing came to us and many people were healed internally and externally automatically without prayed by pastor! Everyone was praising and worshipping with spirit, I can felt 
that God was trying to advance our praise and worship. We really did enjoy in the praise and worship session. But... =.= the time already reached 1am on 1st January 2010. I never felt that the time flew so fast. I was like: Huh? So fast? I thought we were just started~ Can see that everyone was not satisfy and desperate for
more, as they were still standing there didn't want to leave. (If every saturday and sunday the praise and worship session can be like this, it will be like heaven on earth man~ Let it be done in the name of Jesus~ AMEN~! wakakaka~)The service ended. I went to a chair and sat down to rest a while before going back home. Meanwhile, a question came to my mind: Now, what do you want for year 2010? It's actually an ordinary question that everyone will also ask themself at the same time. But, there was a little difference: What do you want for your year 2010? / What do you want for His year 2010? For me, mine is second one, because the year is not belongs to me but Him. (I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. -Galatians 2: 20)
So, I wrote down my aims for this year in a paper. The first thing is to know Him more. And then, my aims for my cell group, family, studies, serving and my own needs. Suddenly, holy spirit reminded me that in year 2008 I actually wrote the same things also as my aims for year 2009. As a matter of fact, I am having the same aim, vision and dream, but different view, perspective and hope.I looked back what I had gone through in year 2009. I really know Him more, His doings and His character. I really gone through lots of hardships, failures, regrets, insults, rejections, misunderstandings, temptations and disappointments. But, thank God for allowing these things appear in my life, as they drew me closer to God and made me know Him.
*For hardships, I know how to face it with joy, knowing He is my strength. (But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. -2 Corinthians 12: 9-10)
*For failures and regrets, I know how to forget them. (Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. -Isaiah 43: 18)
*For insults, rejections and misunderstandings, I know He sees them. (O LORD, you have heard their insults, all their plots against me. -Lamentations 3: 61) I know He will help me. (Give me a sign of your goodness, that my enemies may see it and be put to shame, for you, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me. -Psalm 86: 17)
*For temptations, I know He knows my limitation. (No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. -1 Corinthians 10: 13) I know how to watch and pray to stay away from temptation. (Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak. -Mark 14: 38)
*For dissapointments, I know He is my consolation. (When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul. -Psalm 94: 19)
The most important thing is His love, His everlasting love. No matter how bad, senseless, useless, dirty, sinful I am, He still love me. Whenever I turn back and cry out to God, He listens and He welcomes me with opened arms. (The Parable of The Lost Son-Luke 15:11-32) His love is so great that He loves with no reason. His love gives me chances, His love leads me on, His love forgives me, His love teaches me, His love gives me hope. His love is more than anything. (The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness. -Jeremiah 31:3)
Thank God that He opened my spiritual eyes so I could understand His truth. (Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. -John 8:32) In year 2009, I not only know His truth, but I experienced the truth. Finally I understand the power of His words, which is the truth. He and His words are so close to me that I could die without His words.
As I was driving back home,I felt that in year 2010, it will be a year full of harvest. I know every seeds that I sowed with tears in year 2009, I will harvest them with joy in year 2010! (Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. -Psalm 126: 5) I strongly believe that there will be a great harvest in this year. (Although I don't know how it could happens~) He will leads me into the great harvest. There will be lots of miracles that is beyond my expectation. My heart is full of excitement, hope and joy.
I did a prayer for this year: O God, the only thing that I asked for, is I want you to be with me all the time. That's enough. How about YOU? May God open our eyes and understand His will. God bless~
