Moving Forward

I'm too innocent, too naive. I never know how cruel is this world, not until I hurt myself.

I always put a lot of hope, trust and expectation in everything I do and also every person beside me. I thought they will help me out just because we are friends. NO! They are doing for their own benefits. After they got what they want, they will just dumped you aside. Senseless I still trust them and hope that they could change. It's insulting. No true love and no true friendship in this world. Human beings are full of themselves and self-important.

They will always right and I'm always wrong. I never judge them, because sometimes I will be like that. I confess, no perfect man in this world, including me. But, I felt stupid of my deeds. No matter how I was abused, I still take it as nothing, cover it. Fake! I'm destroying myself! Human won't appreciate for the things you done for them, including me. This world is damn heartless, including me.

That's why I hate the past. I hate their doings, how they treated me. I hate this world. I hate myself!

There's no more past for me, NO MORE~! (Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.-Isaiah 43:18) The devil thought he can stop me like that. No, he is wrong, totally wrong. Even I left just a little faith in my heart, still I will stand up no matter how I fall. I will let them regret of their action of exploiting on me. I will stand strong and stay bold until my last breath. (Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.-Joshua 1:9) Not by myself, but holyspirit. No one knows what will happen tommorrow. No one knows what they will face in the future. The future is like a darkness, terrifying, not knowing what we'll get. The only difference I have is, I have the promise, that is He will always be by my side, in the darkness. I will hold on to the promise. He will never left me alone. (And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.-Matthew 28:20)

I live by faith and love. His love and grace is my strength. I will look at no one. I will pay attention at no one. I will care of no one. I will look forward. I will move forward. I'm not turning back. (But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.-Philippians 3: 13-14)

I was born, not for this world, but for devine purpose.
I won't give up~! Cause I have the true love~! Yes, I do~!